As if I wasn’t good enough, he married someone else … without warning, he didn’t bother to let me know that he had decided to betray me savagely in the middle of my wedding preparations.
As if I were not good enough, he chose another, richer, they say, as if money were what seals two hearts in the communion of marriage.
As if it wasn’t good enough, on the eve of what I hoped would be a new life together as husband and wife, he openly lied to me, most likely deceiving me and leaving me hanging in my shame and pain. Especially with my shame.
As if that wasn’t enough, he humiliated me and left me with a million unanswered questions.
As if he was not good enough, as if he did not have a living heart that bleeds, he openly shared the event of his life on Facebook, posted photos of his wife and their rich wedding to let me discover his naughty act … Online …
As if I was not good enough, he was cowardly Silent while I suffered, while I cried myself to sleep at night, while I prayed many times in the middle of the night with countless tears in my eyes and an invisible sword of piercing betrayal . my already wounded heart.
As if it weren’t good enough, he left me on the battlefield of our “soon-to-be-dead love”, living in a river of blood tears awaiting my “death.”
As if it wasn’t good enough, I let him break my heart to pieces and for months, I swam in an ocean of depression, regrets, pain, shame, and guilt.
As if it wasn’t good enough … No wait … as if it was good enough, one day, I decided to repair my wounds, wear my scars, accept my defeat and Rose Up.
I decided to take my soul, my pain and I began the journey of Healing Myself, to discover my own beauty with my own eyes, to allow myself to BE, to LOVE ME totally and sincerely, to appreciate myself because I AM more than Good. Enough! You too.
Queen Marième Faye
